Monday, October 11, 2010

Will u?

A painful truth
Why do u had to leave me in such a way?
God took u away when I least expected it
Ur leaving left me pain and hurt
Do u noe how much I love u
Even now, then and forever
Becos I love u and I m feeling the fear
How do I be ever to bond with another again
Is this a lesson I have to learn
For me to grow stronger
And for my faith in god to grew deeper
I imagine u were rite beside me
Even if ur body wasn’t here anymore
Am I rite that u are still watching over me
Pls dun ask me how I m
Cos I m never the same as before
I m not ok at all even if I ever smile
Time will heal wound that I know
But knowing and going though is two different thing
Mayb one day we will be together again
The long long wait seem a hundred years to me
R u as painful as I m
I dun wan u to b in pain
But then again I couldn’t even control myself
Do u tink I m a lousy mummy
Lousy cos I make u worried
Pls wait for me and come back to me
Will u do so even if I m that lousy?


  1. Dearie.... I just wanna share this little passage with you - i have that pinned at my work station to remind me .... heres how it goes... and heres what Angel Cookie wants to tell her beloved mommie Serene:

    I Stood by your bed (by Angel Cookie)

    Mommie... I stood by your bed last night, I came to have a peep at you.

    I could see that you were crying, you found it hard to sleep
    I whined to you softly as you brushed away a tear, "It's me, mommie... I haven't left you, I'm well, I'm fine, I'm here."

    I was close to you at breakfast, I watched you pour the tea, You were thinking of the many times, your hands reached down to me.

    I was with you at the shops today, Your arms were getting sore. I longed to take your parcels, I wish I could do more.

    As you were looking at my photo today, you touch me with such care. I want to re-assure you, that I could feel your fingers, caressing my face.

    I walked with you towards the house, As you fumbled for your key. I gently put my paw on you, I smiled and said "It's me"

    You looked so very tired, And sank into a chair, I tried so hard to let you know, That I was standing there. It's possible for me, to be so near you every day. To say to you with certainty, "I never went away."

    You sat there very quietly, Then smiled, I think you knew… In the stillness of that evening, I was very close to you.

    And when the time is right for you, to cross the brief divide, I'll rush across to greet you, and we'll stand, side by side.

    I have so many things to show you, there is so much for you to see.

    Be patient, live your journey out happily and shower your love for me to my Jappy kor kor and all who loves you…

    When its the time we should meet - thats planned by God, we will meet again at the Raninbow Bridge one day, mommie.

    Mommie, pls remember, Cookie loves you and watching over you, be strong mommie.... be strong....

    Loads of love from,
    Angel Cookie....

  2. Jacqleong
    This is nice, it send tears to my eyes.

    It's hard, really hard to go through these days esp during the initial stage, nothing I said could heal your broken heart. Just yesterday night, before I fell asleep , I am thinking of your cookie, then slowly to my Baby. Tears started to roll down uncontrollably. I can totally understand your pain, I know this is really painful, too painful for words. Serene, take sometime to read this This will help you to understand your grief. Serene, remember you are not alone. Do drop me a line if you need someone to talk. Take care.

  3. tomyforeverbaby:
    This was the passage I cling on to when I lost my Daisy.... its beautiful and I stay believe thats true....

    You are not alone. Drop us a line, anytime, it need to talk and cry out, we are here for you. All of us here loves and care for you.... we kno how pain you are, hugs....

  4. To Jacq
    Jacq realli thank u for being here for me durning these time for the msg u sent...this msg here reali bring tears to my eyes but its the greatest comfort knowing she is right beside me at all times. Yes, i have to love Jappy doubly more and whatever i cant give cookie anymore i will shower it upon Jappy.

    To my forever baby
    I think god is letting me/us throu this pain to really learn how to let go and to learn the pain of lossing someone dear so i/we can understand others and be of comfort in future...Just like how u are now to me cos u went thro before, like jacq, u and me now. Thank u for the link i will go read abt it.

    I thank god for giving me lots of friends like the two of u ard me. It would be harder if without u all.