My Sweet little gal

Cookie baby

Mummy had just cleared one paper last Friday. Baby Cookie Mummy hasnt forgotten abt u. Not abit at all. Mummy been controlling my tots, my misses, my pain, my hurts, my everything and deeply burnt myself in studying for the past two weeks. Mummy didnt write to u for the more i write, the more mummy cant hold on to myself. Cookie, i m sure u agreed and support mummy rite all these while.

My little baobei, Sunday Mummy went back to church. For the past two week due to the exam, Mummy had to gave it a miss for classmate are meeting up for group study. Baby cookie, Mummy feel that Mummy is so blessed. So blessed that mummy had a group of very nice classmates who hold me throu study these period.

So blessed that Mummy have a group of very nice, close friends, church mates, church, friends who understand Mummy's heart without even had to speak, they just knew it...Baby cookie, church had became a place where Mummy find so comfortable with. A place where Mummy could just cry and not having to b judge at, just cry and not having to make other worri abt me, just lay everything down and just be able to cry. Have not been crying these much not til Sunday. Crying bring off healing. Somehow Mummy find it so funni, the more i cry - the more i understand how deep my hurt was.

Baby, Mummy recieved a wonderful gift. A gift which money cannot buy. Its a hand drawn pic of u baby.
Its not a normal pic, Its a pic of love.
A pic that was drawn out of love. A meaningful piece of gift from someone who have any see u before.
But only know u and know Mummy. Knowing the same old pain that she once had before which Mummy is feeling just rite now, she pen it all down into this beautiful paper. Baby cookie, Mummy wonder how it will be like if u had know her before?
How would baby react to her? Mummy wonder.
Baby cookie, u have ur likes and dislike and Mummy nv seem to understand nor know how u different them.
U like certain people and love them all the way (even if its just countable) U dislike certain people and snap at them whenever u see.
Mummy wonder how u would treat this kind friend who had drawn this pic of love out and given it to Mummy.
As Mummy are wondering, Mummy got a sense that she would fall into that countable group. She will rite Baby?
U surely sense her love for u and Mummy rite?
Baby cookie, even when u no longer are ard, Mummy still be able to feel u....
Your presence stil around, in the hearts of those who noe u just as how Mummy received this hand drawn pic of u.

My Sweet little Cookie



P/S:
A, if u are reading this, I thank u for letting me be able to feel her even when she is gone. I feel that god have blessed me so much. And u too. U have a great gift god given to u...and by this pic u had touch my life.
To another A, this journey would be hard to imagine if u wasnt ard wif me. In years to came, u be away to another country. I promiss and i m sure i b a stronger person by then. Stronger becos u help in molding me as one.

If Only

If only time can go back to when it is
If only life can be strenghten to many more years to be

If only I can hold u once again when tears fill up my eyes
If only I can kiss u once again when my heart start to ache

Baby Cookie

Mummy is so sorri...the more Mummy writes the more Mummy feel the pain. Missing u even more each time Mummy come in here.

If only u havnt gone away

Visit to the Vet

Cookie Baby

Last nite Mummy brought Jappy Kor Kor to the vet. Grandma called in the afternoon complaining that Jappy Kor Kor not eating well for already 1mth and yet Mummy didnt bring him for a check up. Even Melvin Kor Kor complained that why Mummy didnt rush to the vet. Baby, u had a weaker immunity that whenever u are alittle not well, the first thing Mummy does is rush to the vet. But for Jappy Kor Kor, Mummy didnt cos he is alway much better. He heal faster and never really gave us problems. So Mummy never tot of going to the vet. But since Grandma and everyone complained and suggest i should bring for a check up. We went...

And baby, Kor Kor is super healthy. Despite him not eating well for the past one mth, his weight is still slightly over. Baby cookie, u b shock if u noe his weight. hahahaa...despite not eating, he still a fatti. So mean of Mummy hor. But Mummy is glad he is healthy.

But vet confirmed one thing - He is emotionali affected. Not used to being alone without u? Physical, Kor Kor is perfectly fine but emotionali he is not. Emotional ur Kor Kor is not well. Hai baby cookie...now Mummy feel that physical wound is so much easier to nurse then emotional wound. Was told to move the furniture area and try to change the food bowl and items at home...to help kor kor to get over.

But Baby, Mummy stil dun have the courage to keep away ur pee tray. Its easy said then done. Mummy just cant...cant keep away ur stuff.

So hard on Mummy these period...Baby, Mummy have to put up a strong front to face our family so that they wont worry, put on a happi face in work so that Mummy can continue working, put up a strong n loving side toward Jappy to be a good Mummy, Put up with the stress in the coming exam....Cookie how Mummy wish u are here wif Mummy. Only if u were still around...

Ash Necklace

Cookie Baby

Mummy is right now looking for an ash necklace. U noe what it is? It a necklace that can contain ashes. Mummy want to have one. Mummy wish to have one.

Mummy want to place ur ash inside this necklace and wear it whereever i goes. Mummy want cookie baby to be close to Mummy. Not just in memories....

Mummy told Daddy that one day if Mummy passed on before Daddy, Daddy will have to remember to mix Mummy's ash and cookie's ash together. Like wise, Mummy promissed Daddy to do the same. Does it means that we are together forever, Baby?

Kor Kor Jap Jap not eating

Cookie Angel

Today is the 2nd day ur kor kor have not taken any meals. He only took a few pcs of meat. And now, Mummy can feel his ribs bone already. He really slim down alot alot. Nothing seem to work for him. Nothing seem to interest him except going out of home. Mummy wonder was it because ur tragic accident leave a bad impact on him. He is getting out of hand.

Mummy got an idea not sure if it works. Tonite, Mummy is going to mince all the meat/veg/potato together and stem for him. Hopeful he get to eat some.

He used to be 6.5 kg. And Mummy suspect he is weight just barly 6kg or even lesser. U remember when kor kor first came to us, his weight is only 5.8kg and he is like boney. Can feel his bone everywhere. Now he is back to that shape again. Hai....

haha cookie baby - Mummy just happen to weight myself too. Mummy also lost weight. Mummy lose 3kg in just one mth time. That fast yah. Daddy been nagging so much abt Mummy weight lost. Gonna pump up more....U remember how Mummy alway complained to u that Mummy put on weight? And baby cookie, hahah only u wont laught at Mummy when Mummy complained hor. Cos all of Mummy friends will scream if Mummy ever say I m Fat...or i put on weight. But cookie, u noe rite...Mummy did put on..became more fleshy. Baby Cookie...gave Mummy more time...soon Mummy will put on and start my complain again k. U miss Mummy's nag rite dun u?

Jappy Kor Kor not eating

My Little Angel Cookie

Jappy Kor Kor throw temper again. He refused to eat since yesterday. Yesterday whole day, he just ate a few pieces of meat. Mummy even make the effort to cook for him since he refuse to eat his barf. And even after cooking, he only took a few pcs and Mummy had to throw away the rest. Waste Mummy's and Daddy's effort. Cookie baby,its ur fav rite - homecook food. How Mummy wish to be able to see u eat just another meal...but its not gonna be anymore.

Mummy had tried my best...but stil the best to Kor Kor never seem rite. This morning, We even wake up early and brought him downstair for a walk, thinking he might be able to eat after that. But still, he refuse to. Till Daddy gave up and decided we shall let him strave.

Cookie, Mummy is so worried now. U noe Jappy Kor Kor have gastric problems all these while. How can he not eat for few days? Mummy think he sure gonna vomit again? Mummy afraid he might just b too depress to eat, and slowly get weaker...

Baby cookie, u noti little chille padi...where have u been? Playing too much in heaven? U not watching over ur Kor Kor yah?

Going a month

Baby Cookie

Its going a month without u. Times passed real fast. Mummy cant figure out how i have lead this almost a mth time. But stil days passes by each day.

Just rite now cookie, Mummy isnt feeling reali good. The pain of losing u is still so raw...still so new...still so real like its had just happened. Emotions have been like a rollar coaster. There are times when Mummy seem just alright...and there were moments just like now when Mummy's heart just ache non stop. Life is just so fraigle like a nice sweet bubble.

Mayb others wont know, Mayb others cant tell, Mayb others cant understand nor feel, how deep Mummy's wound is...But cookie u surely know rite?

My little angel, will u come back to me if u have the chance? Will u come and visit Mummy in my dreams?

When its all that u have

Cookie baby,

Last nite, Mummy had to burn midnite oil studying for the upcoming exam. Mummy did it alone with all the rest sleeping. Even Jappy Kor Kor cant wait and fast alseep before everyone of us... Mummy stay up late til 1plus pm. And suddenly, Mummy just break down again. Mummy really miss u. Do u know this is the most difficult time in Mummy life. Cookie - Mummy is so lousy rite?

The nite time seem the hardest. Esp when all are alseep. If u were stil around, am i sure u will be here for Mummy rite?

Knowing life without u would be hard but it until Mummy had really experience the loss that i realised the pain. Its when someone loss before, then that someone will realised how it have been. How true...and how real it is.

Just like now. Mummy never know that all i need is God until all i have is God...Only God.

I miss u

Cookie baby, Mummy found this pic while tidying the PC. Its Cookie and Mummy. Baby, do u stil remember? We went to help out at the dog show? And there is a mini competition for the look alike couple - owner and dog. And Mummy went to took this pic wif u and me.
Haha - cookie, we didnt win any at all. But Mummy stil think we look the best, cookie look the best of all. Cookie baby, u look so much like Mummy, dont u? U think so?
Past two days, our laptop spoilt and Daddy had to send for repair. So Mummy start to tidy up all the pics. Seeing ur pics hurt so much. And Mummy became worry, wondering if cookie is happy and all rite now? Remember, whenever we go holiday - cookie u will wait for days and not even wan to sleep. The most u nap while and start waiting again...And only when we are back, then u will sleep like a log for days.
Mummy wondering will u behave this way without us ard? But daddy say no...u will wait but u have god to shower plenti of love on u. Daddy and Auntie A said u prob sitting on God's lap, all the time, bark and showing ur teeth at those that wan to cum near...that's u rite Baby. Mummy always try to picture this imagine whenever Mummy feel pain. Mummy hope God will have many many hands so he could reserve one for u, to hug u. Mummy hope God will have many many legs so he could reserve one for u, to let u sit on his lap.

Cookie, Mummy miss u

Love is all about....

Baby Cookie

Mummy woke up and was crying this morning again. But Baby cookie, this time Mummy dun feel as bad as those other many times that Mummy shed my tears.
Somehow Mummy seem to understand certain things. Mayb not fully understood yet, but Mummy is somewhere there...i felt.

Mummy been telling myself, if Mummy continue this way...feel down and sad...cookie baby will also be very sad, worried and wont bare to let go too. Baby u love Mummy as much as Mummy love u rite...Just as u dun wan, dun wish to see a heartbroken Mummy, Mummy also dun wan to see a heartbroken Cookie. Mummy been thinking of this, for every little tears that roll down frm my eyes, Mayb it even more on cookie beautiful eyes. And frm this, Mummy suddenly feel like "wake up' kind cos Mummy wont want cookie to be in pain.

Its painful period while feeling cant really be control by oneself. But Mummy can control how to react to these feeling. I can control not to let my mind think of the unhappiness and dwel on it. Can control to keep my mind on happy issue. Can control my mind on the sweet moments wif cookie...I could do much more then dwelling into it.

Baby Cookie, U must be smilling happily rite now rite? Wherever u are now (Mummy wish u are in heaven thoug), Mummy wan u to be happy...Always happy...cos Mummy really love Cookie.

Is this what love is all about?

P/S: Thanks to my dear friends, for all ur prayers and support. U noe who u are rite, hehee i dun have to cum out names rite...frm the deepest of my heart - really thank u all. Becos of ur prayers, i m slowly and will slowly pick up frm the lowest soon.

Ur Jappy Kor Kor

Baby Cookie

Do u miss Jappy Kor Kor?

Baby, ur Jappy Kor Kor miss u so much. He is doing much better now compare to last two weeks.

But Cookie, Kor kor is stil not eating well. He no longer the happy go lucki Jappy anymore.
U remember, he used to bark and whine and jump when Mummy was preparing food for the both of u.
And cookie gal, u always got so angry with his rubbish that you will snap at him to ask him to shut up. Without u scolding him, he seem not keen in food anymore. He no longer cum and wait for his food in joy.
In fact, when Mummy start preparing food, he walk into the room with his tail down. Sometime when Mummy chased after him, he went to hide inside the walk in wardrobe and He even peek to see if Mummy went off chasing him already ant. Mummy had no choice so we change his diet to one meal a day. Cos by night time, he would be strave and hungry and have no choice but to eat. Even at nite, Mummy had to take like 20min to feed him compare to 5min when u are ard.
Jappy kor kor also not interested in treats anymore. Whatever treats we gave, he refuse to take.
Cookie baby, u see...actuali Jappy kor kor do love cookie alot too. Ur leaving left such great impact and changes in kor kor life. Do u noe how much we love u baby?

Baby cookie, Mummy still havent been sleeping well. And due to the lack of sleep, Mummy start having headache almost everyday. So bad so that Mummy had to take panadol daily. Mummy will try to cut down taking k. Ohya baby, our bach flower just came yesterday. Mummy took it last nite. This bach flower is a combination of a few naturals flower which help to calm the mind...read that its help with insomnia too. Baby u are stil watching over Mummy rite? Mummy have been trying my best to be happy each day, taking each day - hr by hr. Baby cookie, can u tell Mummy is trying already?

You are my everything

Cookie Baby

This three years is the most wonderful three years in Mummy's 27 year of life.

You are not just a pet nor a dog to Mummy...but you are Mummy's everything.

You made Mummy's going home a looking forward process...from the day u cum till the day u left. Every weekdays at work, Mummy just cant wait to go home to have u jumping in joy upon seeing Mummy is home. Cookie, do u remember all these? Will u forget Mummy? Mummy have not forgetten every little bits of Cookie, not at all, not now and not ever.

U are a very quiet dog. U seldom bark, only when there is some one at the door. Even when something goes wrong, u never bark and seldom whine.

When things goes wrong, u are always the one who pick it up. When the aircon was leaking, be it in the middle of the nite or be it in the day time when Mummy was busy wif other thing, u stood rite there...looking at the aircon and looking back at Mummy. Mummy is a blur person yah. U are alway the one who notice things. Mummy only notice the aircon leaking, despite its pouring out so much water, until Mummy saw that look on ur face.

Not just the aircon, the tiolet bowl leakage too. U stood outside the tiolet refuse to move even when Mummy call a hundred times...not until Mummy discover it.

Baby, do u remember there was once there is a big fly in Mummy room that make Mummy frek out. U were so brave. U jump and jump trying to catch the fly away. And eventuali the fly gave up and left.

Cookie, Mummy have to learn to live my life again. All over again...without u around anymore....

My Pretty Angel

Cookie
Do u noe u are so pretti in Mummy's eye?
Do u noe u are just the right size for Mummy to hug?
Do u noe u look so much like Mummy?
Do u noe u are a sweet little angel to Mummy?
Do u noe u got two brown eyes that speak?
Do u noe u got the best mixture of colour?
Do u noe u got super nice soft fur?
Do u noe u got a heart shape at the right side of ur body?

My pretti little Angel Cookie...
Mummy love u

Our Sunday

Baby Cookie

This sunday seem worse then last sunday.

Daddy woke up with a bad backache, whole body aching and couldnt go church. Becos Mummy didnt sleep well last nite. Mummy was awake in the middle of the nite. Mummy cried myself to sleep again. Weekend been always hard.Middle of the nite while Mummy was awake, Mummy blamed the aircon, the weather, the blanket, everything and even wake Daddy up to adjust the aircon etc....But the real true fact - Mummy noes. Its becos Cookie u are not here anymore.

Cookie how long more will Mummy get used to without u? How long more will Mummy be pefectly ok?

Angel Cookie...it been more almost three weeks already. And til now, Mummy stil feel like it had just happen...the pain is so intenses, so real...so deep.
Mummy been reading alot of book right now...book on dealing wif the loss of pets...books on do dogs go heaven...Mummy seem to be searching for an answer...But yet deep within Mummy noe there is no answer. No answer to why cookie is gone, No answer to why Cookie had to go, No answer to how to cope wif all these. Mummy just had to learn, learn to grow used to it. Learn to go out of it.

Still remember, Auntie A said this to Mummy:

You can let go, let go of the pain...let go of the guilt
and
Let go doesnt mean not to love cookie anymore
Let go mean to honour this love for cookie
Let go mean to remember this love for cookie
Let go mean to get on life and be a happier person
Let go mean to treasure the current wan who left behind
Let go mean not to dwell on the passing by
And by being able to let go - this is the true essence of love. Cos cookie wont wan Mummy to be be in pain, to be in guilt.

Mummy is still going through this...learning what its really meant to be. Perhaps this is ur purpose of life when u cross Mummy's path.

Today

Baby Cookie

Today Mummy did study in the afternoon. Are u smiling, seeing Mummy studying? Mummy kept telling myself that the more i study, the more cookie be happy. Am i right baby?

We just came back frm grandma place. Mummy cried again. Its a process Mummy had to go through bah.

Mummy having a terrible headache now. Going to take panadmol to sleep soon cos tomolo Mummy going church.

Baby Angel, Mummy is home already. Can u see Mummy? Can u hear Mummy? Can u feel Mummy? Can u cum to Mummy dreams one more time?

Baby...Mummy miss ur smell. Miss ur stomach and ur butt. Miss ur soft fur. Miss ur kisses. Miss ur tiny little paw. Miss the way u hump ur miss piggy. Miss every little bit of u. Do u noe everywhere Mummy goes, Mummy imagine u were stil ard...Mayb this way help Mummy not to feel so bad.

Goodnite my sweet little cookie gal.

My last day of sch

Cookie Gal

Today is Mummy's last day of school. Remember everytime Mummy tell u to endure for Mummy. Endure that Mummy had to go school on every tues n thur nite and had to be home late. Mummy told u its gonna be a yr. And soon aft its finished, Mummy will have time for u. Mummy said before, after this course, Mummy will bring you and korkor down for walk everyday...but Baby u didnt wait til then. Actuali Mummy wanted to start bringing u for walks more often then before already, but before Mummy could do so,U were gone already. Frankly Mummy hate this words...U are gone. This is exact the words Mummy heard when i rushed u in to the vet on that tragic day. Frankly, Mummy knew it before we even reach the vet. But Mummy just dun wan to face it.

Today was the last day of school and Mummy was feeling much worse then yesterday.

Baby, Mummy gonna force myself to study. Each time Mummy tink of u, each little pain Mummy feel, each little fear that grip Mummy heart....Mummy gonna convert all this to Mummy's exam. Baby cookie u be just like before rite...right beside Mummy...watching over Mummy.

2010 was realli a bad year for Mummy. This year is the hardest of all years. Even harder then the year Mummy loss Grandma. This year is the year, Mummy loss my everything...my heart, my love, my little cookie gal

20th Oct cuming...ur heartworm day. Should Mummy cook something nice for u on that day? Mummy feel like doing so...but yet noeing u wont there eating and had to throw the things away eventuali...but still, Mummy think i will do it. Even if u cant eat it, Mummy hope at least u can smell it...can u smell it in heaven? Can u smell Mummy's love for u? Its very sweet? Shall i prepare ur fav egg, pork and mmm let Mummy think and cum out with something nice for u ok.

I tot its was u

Angel Cookie

Last nite, its was pouring. Wif thunder and storm in the very early morning. Mummy think its ard 4plus or 5plus.

And Cookie baby, while Mummy was sleeping. Mummy heard the thunder roar. And was simi awake by it. Then out of the blue, Mummy felt a soft body cuming very gently and curl up in between Mummy legs. Like how u alway are. U will automatic cum in between Mummy Legs when Mummy was watching TV and u would curl up and lay ur head on Mummy leg for support. Within that spilt sec, in Mummy's sub conscious mind, Mummy tot it was you. Really you. Only you.
And Baby, Mummy even call Cookie. And that moment it struck Mummy that its wasnt u. Its Jappy Kor Kor. Jappy Kor Kor nv done such act before. And becos of the thunder, he is so scare that he curl to Mummy legs and hide.

Baby, Is god trying to tell Mummy that Mummy stil have Jappy kor kor. Or iszit Angel cookie cum back to peep at Mummy? Are u the wan who teach Jappy Kor Kor to comfort Mummy in such a way?

Baby Cookie, mayb Mummy is missing u too much...that Mummy tot it was u. And i m wrong.

Will u?

A painful truth
Why do u had to leave me in such a way?
God took u away when I least expected it
Ur leaving left me pain and hurt
Do u noe how much I love u
Even now, then and forever
Becos I love u and I m feeling the fear
How do I be ever to bond with another again
Is this a lesson I have to learn
For me to grow stronger
And for my faith in god to grew deeper
I imagine u were rite beside me
Even if ur body wasn’t here anymore
Am I rite that u are still watching over me
Pls dun ask me how I m
Cos I m never the same as before
I m not ok at all even if I ever smile
Time will heal wound that I know
But knowing and going though is two different thing
Mayb one day we will be together again
The long long wait seem a hundred years to me
R u as painful as I m
I dun wan u to b in pain
But then again I couldn’t even control myself
Do u tink I m a lousy mummy
Lousy cos I make u worried
Pls wait for me and come back to me
Will u do so even if I m that lousy?

Ur friends

Cookie Gal

U remember "Lion" the silky terrier who stay the opposite block? I m sure baby u would remember. Ur memory exceed what Mummy can think and expect of. Yesterday, Mummy saw the owner and lion and they asked about u?

And that they missed u alot cos our timming of walk alway doesnt reali met.

Baby, Mummy wept when Mummy had to tel them hw u passed on. Mummy reali reali hate it, Hate to go throu telling others, Hate to think of it...and whenever Mummy does think of the way it happen, Mummy start to go into panic attack.
Even rite now baby. A sense of fear just grip Mummy's heart.Mummy also dun noe what i m so scare of.
U noe Baby, u must b very heartpain rite, Mummy had to take pill to calm myself down so that Mummy is able to sleep for the first few days. And Mummy had stop taking the pills for days already.

But last nite, Mummy took grandma's relaxers pill again. And after taking, mummy felt so guilty thinking of your little black face looking at Mummy. Yesterday was a bad evening. Mummy met Lion owner and yet at the clinc Mummy had to face grandma's crying and yet have to be stronger in front of her. Baby, Mummy promiss it would be the last time ok. Mummy promissed to myself and to u ok. Pls forgive Mummy once more time?

Baby cookie, mummy had to tell myself everytime that it fated that it had to happen. My little baby gal, iszit true?

Lion Mummy told us Lion's real mother passed away by car accident. And it happen on that fated day that the owner went out without locking the wooden door, only lock the metal door. They use to do so and Lion mother nv once escape out. But just that very day...she ran out and was knock down by a car. They didnt even manage to find her only hours later. And the cleaner told them that the cleaner was about to discard away the body if they had been a minute late in claiming. Baby, its all fated rite? The time to cum had to cum eventuali? Mummy been telling myself this...its true rite?

The Truth

Baby Angel Cookie,

Mummy's weekend was so hard to go by, a struggle to wake as always....struggle not that Mummy was sleepy, Mummy wasnt at all - in fact Mummy didnt reali sleep well. Mummy alway wake up in the middle of the nite and just couldnt go back to sleep. Struggle cos Mummy cant feel u. Struggle cos No cookie to kiss Mummy. Struggle cos Mummy had to let go but just didnt seem to.

Mummy cried so badly for the first week. But as days passes, Mummy felt so numb to living life...numb to crying, numb to everything in life. The truth is cruel yet so real...the more Mummy realised, the more Mummy numb Mummy feel. Baby u must be hating Mummy this way, Mummy hate it too. And Baby, there isnt much tears cuming out...but instead the pain seem to trap inside Mummy's deepest heart. You noe cookie, Mummy look fine on the outside but deep within my smile, Mummy 's heart is aching. Mummy had to smile...Mummy had to look good on the surface cos if Mummy dont, manys will be worried esp grandma. Grandma not doing well. Grandma visited the doc last nite n was crying n crying. Baby, dun be upsad k, give Mummy and Grandma more time...ok.

Mummy went church on sunday. From the start to the end, Mummy felt nothing wrong. Nothing wrong as in Mummy didnt feel crying like Mummy feel so numb to all these...mayb Mummy is trying to avoid, running away frm the truth. But stil Baby, toward the ending just before we left...Mummy broke down again. Mummy tot i wouldnt, but something inside making Mummy couldnt control anymore then. No matter how many times Mummy asked God why take Baby Cookie away? Why u? It is not going to change the truth...The truth hurts cos Baby u are the most precious...the most special...the most beautiful...the most protective...the most attached...the most sweet...the most gentle...the most bold...the most smart...gal mummy always love.

Baby, whereever u are rite now, can u see us from where u are? Baby, dun be too noti, smelling others and not letting other friends to smell u. Baby dun bark too much and forget abt drinking water. Everytime Mummy say drink water, u will go drink drink...u understand Mummy words rite...now Mummy not beside u anymore, u have to be good gal.

Baby Mummy decorated a special place for u at home, in front of our bed. Mummy brought a very beautiful cystal frame for ur photo, matching cystal box to hold ur soft fur, ur baby teeth...Mummy also brought an angel. This little angel is holding a heart that wrote Sept. Cookie, do u noe u are just like this angel...Mummy's September Angel Gal. Baby do u like what Mummy have done up for u. Are u happy smiling in Joy seeing this?

Baby Mummy hope i could sent u this pices to where ever u are...the place for cookie belong to in Mummy 's heart, Mummy's room.